Things I would Post if I had a Finsta

•  I have decided to start making two breakfasts every morning.  It's more work, but it's worth it.  I've realized I no longer really know how to feed myself, just make elaborate feel-better meals and eat the leftovers from what I made my kid.  And I guess it's time to start feeding myself again.
  
• My kid is low key spoiled.  Every morning I get up early and make him a lovely balanced breakfast and leave it by his bed before I shower and get dressed for work.  It's an example of the little things I do to try to make him feel special and cared for, and it makes my morning a bit easier.  If I had more than one kid, I might not be able to do these things with the same level of care and thought, and while I am sure it would be fine, it would bum me out.  My son's father chose addiction over being his parent, so I need him to know every day that I am still here, consistently picking him.  Hopefully that at least gives him the chance of blaming his dad instead of himself.
• There will always be a part of me that wants a big house filled with lots of loud, laughing kids.  Desperately.  The other day my son ran off with some other children, and I waved the parents off to go corral the mini posse, and it gave me joy to laugh and play children of all different ages and stages.  That doesn't mean I will ever change my mind about my decision to only have one child.  It just means that somewhere, out in the multiverse, there's a different me with that life, and she is so, so happy.  But every once in a while she sits along with just one baby and thinks of what that would be like, or gets a night alone and wishes she had more opportunities for that.
• If you don't get the vaccine, or choose to ignore climate science or other generally accepted science, you should have to give up other technological advancements, too.  No more antibiotics for you, no more iPhone.  No more fancy fermented kombucha.  Go live with the Amish (who *are* getting vaccinated!) if that's how you want to live your life.
  
• My man.  Running off to appease my child at the second cry of "mommy",  he came back undaunted a minute later when he couldn't solve it on his own.  "Pacifier?  He can't see you, but what should I do?"  That's the biggest everything energy.  I know I can't do it all, but help me take it of you plate with out fucking things up for kiddo too much.  That's a real man.   That's some mother's day shit.  Leaving the fully packed pipe as he left didn't hurt.
• Several times a week I can't find my keys/cellphone/glasses/other essential item because my purse has too many tiny trucks and snacks in it.
• I have an idea for a game.  I'd call it "Kid, Dog, or Lover" and it would be people saying different things with the phrase "big boy" in it, and you have to guess if hte preson is talking to a kid, a dog, or a lover.
  

Post-2020, But Not All the Way

 How do you go through everything we went through, and not want to do everything possible to kept it at bay.

I don't know how anyone can have gone through any version of the last year and not want to do everything in ones own power to get the fuck back to normal.

The pandemic and the entire year have brought so much death and pain and struggle and torturous survival.  I watched children commit suicide, adults overdose, students drop out of school, get sick, and complete assignments between funerals.  We watched our children de-socialize, we de-socialized.  We gave up holidays, birthdays, weddings, anniversaries, graduations, and who knows what else.  Said goodbye to movies, concerts, sports....

And I don't get it.

How do you come through that *more* selfish?!?!  Less willing to work towards a world where all of that fades to black.  How on Earth is anyone saying no to a vaccine that can save lives and give us normal back.  I cannot tell what kind of human being would give up life, love, and freedom, health, the sanity of friends, family and strangers.

  Who the fuck is so selfish as to duck a shot and refuse the world that?  Risk that, leave that up to chance.

I am sorry, I don't want to be friends with those people.  If you don't get the shot stay the entire fuck away from me.